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Just because you keep saying it doesn't make it true.
You've seen me die. Which isn't a surprise considering killing us is literally your job.
That doesn't make it a death wish.
That doesn't make it a death wish.
it ain't the dying that's the death wish. it's how you get there. getting in the way when you don't have to. all that shit at the gates. things like that.
So I should just let you have someone else instead? Come on.
It isn't a death wish just because I put them before me either.
It isn't a death wish just because I put them before me either.
that ain't it either.
you don't get it. doubt you ever will. most death wishes don't until the end.
you don't get it. doubt you ever will. most death wishes don't until the end.
You're the one who doesn't get it.
You don't know what it's like being on this side of the fence, so don't talk to me about a death wish just because I'm doing what I can to get people out that gate with what I know how to do.
I take hits better than most, so I get in the way. That's all there is to it.
You don't know what it's like being on this side of the fence, so don't talk to me about a death wish just because I'm doing what I can to get people out that gate with what I know how to do.
I take hits better than most, so I get in the way. That's all there is to it.
you do it dumber than you should. and you aren't that dumb.
[ this is hard to admit, to be fair. ]
you're not the only one.
[ this is hard to admit, to be fair. ]
you're not the only one.
[ evan saying he's not that dumb genuinely does throw david off for a minute there. if he was in a better mood he'd jump on it straight away, but this whole death wish thing really does get under his skin and he doesn't know why, which just pisses him off more. ]
Not always easy to make smart choices when you're in the thick of it.
Not always easy to make smart choices when you're in the thick of it.
yeah, but you should still have some kind of self preservation going on. especially in trials.
right. sure.
locker jockey's got a better instinct to survive than you.
[ dwight. he means dwight. ]
locker jockey's got a better instinct to survive than you.
[ dwight. he means dwight. ]
Piss off. Don't call him that.
[ yes that's the important part ]
[ yes that's the important part ]
he knows how to hide. keep his ass out of sight. not get killed as soon as we see each other.
What's your point? Some of us are better at hiding, some take the chase. Not about survival instinct, it's about putting people where they're best used.
Locks don't take the beating because they're stupid or they just wanna fight. It's so the others can focus on other shit and try to net the win.
Locks don't take the beating because they're stupid or they just wanna fight. It's so the others can focus on other shit and try to net the win.
[ he can't explain this over text, he realizes. he probably couldn't explain it in person. there's no way for him to try and get the idea into david's head that he's been here so long, seen so many idiots doing this in every different way, that he can just tell at this point when someone's trying to get themselves killed, even if they don't realize it.
maybe there's no point. he gets the feeling, right about then, that david wouldn't like the realization, or appreciate it. it's just something to hold onto. throw in his face when the conversation goes the wrong way to get him on another track. ]
that sounds like you played a lot of sports.
maybe there's no point. he gets the feeling, right about then, that david wouldn't like the realization, or appreciate it. it's just something to hold onto. throw in his face when the conversation goes the wrong way to get him on another track. ]
that sounds like you played a lot of sports.
[ that throws him off again, but honestly part of him is so relieved to move off the topic that his mind latches on to it without question. replies without even considering if he wants evan to know this much about him. ]
Rugby mostly. I was semi-pro, way back.
Rugby mostly. I was semi-pro, way back.
never heard of it.
[ but he can make some guesses, given it's david. ]
[ but he can make some guesses, given it's david. ]
[ staring directly into the camera like he's on the office ]
Imagine if your lot's take on football was an actual sport instead of a highlight reel then.
Imagine if your lot's take on football was an actual sport instead of a highlight reel then.
[ evan please ]
But you must've seen a match or two in your time.
But you must've seen a match or two in your time.
maybe. don't remember. sports weren't important.
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