it ain't the dying that's the death wish. it's how you get there. getting in the way when you don't have to. all that shit at the gates. things like that.
You're the one who doesn't get it. You don't know what it's like being on this side of the fence, so don't talk to me about a death wish just because I'm doing what I can to get people out that gate with what I know how to do.
I take hits better than most, so I get in the way. That's all there is to it.
[ evan saying he's not that dumb genuinely does throw david off for a minute there. if he was in a better mood he'd jump on it straight away, but this whole death wish thing really does get under his skin and he doesn't know why, which just pisses him off more. ]
Not always easy to make smart choices when you're in the thick of it.
What's your point? Some of us are better at hiding, some take the chase. Not about survival instinct, it's about putting people where they're best used.
Locks don't take the beating because they're stupid or they just wanna fight. It's so the others can focus on other shit and try to net the win.
[ he can't explain this over text, he realizes. he probably couldn't explain it in person. there's no way for him to try and get the idea into david's head that he's been here so long, seen so many idiots doing this in every different way, that he can just tell at this point when someone's trying to get themselves killed, even if they don't realize it.
maybe there's no point. he gets the feeling, right about then, that david wouldn't like the realization, or appreciate it. it's just something to hold onto. throw in his face when the conversation goes the wrong way to get him on another track. ]
[ that throws him off again, but honestly part of him is so relieved to move off the topic that his mind latches on to it without question. replies without even considering if he wants evan to know this much about him. ]
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[ not again!! ]
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That doesn't make it a death wish.
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It isn't a death wish just because I put them before me either.
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you don't get it. doubt you ever will. most death wishes don't until the end.
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You don't know what it's like being on this side of the fence, so don't talk to me about a death wish just because I'm doing what I can to get people out that gate with what I know how to do.
I take hits better than most, so I get in the way. That's all there is to it.
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[ this is hard to admit, to be fair. ]
you're not the only one.
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Not always easy to make smart choices when you're in the thick of it.
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locker jockey's got a better instinct to survive than you.
[ dwight. he means dwight. ]
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[ yes that's the important part ]
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Locks don't take the beating because they're stupid or they just wanna fight. It's so the others can focus on other shit and try to net the win.
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maybe there's no point. he gets the feeling, right about then, that david wouldn't like the realization, or appreciate it. it's just something to hold onto. throw in his face when the conversation goes the wrong way to get him on another track. ]
that sounds like you played a lot of sports.
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Rugby mostly. I was semi-pro, way back.
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[ but he can make some guesses, given it's david. ]
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Imagine if your lot's take on football was an actual sport instead of a highlight reel then.
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