OPEN.

[bloodandbrass]

Comments

[hardlydead]

I was trying to have a conversation, not get under your skin.
Pardon me for forgetting for 10 minutes that you don't do that.

[bloodandbrass]

yeah, well, you fucked it up.

[hardlydead]

Me?
You're the one who started going on about how I should've killed my dad and also anyone else who even looks at me weird.

[bloodandbrass]

it's good advice. doesn't surprise me you wouldn't take it.

[hardlydead]

Because it's insane.

[bloodandbrass]

lotta shit you do is insane.

[ he's not disagreeing, though. ]

[hardlydead]

I feel like "trying to keep people alive" and "murdering anyone who slights you" are two very different kinds of crazy.

[bloodandbrass]

doesn't make it not insane. especially the way you do it.

[hardlydead]

What about the way I do it?

[bloodandbrass]

death wish.

[hardlydead]

Fuck off.

[ not again!! ]

[bloodandbrass]

truth hurts. better get used to it.

[hardlydead]

Just because you keep saying it doesn't make it true.

[bloodandbrass]

i'm saying it because i've seen it.

[hardlydead]

You've seen me die. Which isn't a surprise considering killing us is literally your job.
That doesn't make it a death wish.

[bloodandbrass]

it ain't the dying that's the death wish. it's how you get there. getting in the way when you don't have to. all that shit at the gates. things like that.

[hardlydead]

So I should just let you have someone else instead? Come on.
It isn't a death wish just because I put them before me either.

[bloodandbrass]

that ain't it either.

you don't get it. doubt you ever will. most death wishes don't until the end.

[hardlydead]

You're the one who doesn't get it.
You don't know what it's like being on this side of the fence, so don't talk to me about a death wish just because I'm doing what I can to get people out that gate with what I know how to do.

I take hits better than most, so I get in the way. That's all there is to it.

[bloodandbrass]

you do it dumber than you should. and you aren't that dumb.

[ this is hard to admit, to be fair. ]

you're not the only one.

[hardlydead]

[ evan saying he's not that dumb genuinely does throw david off for a minute there. if he was in a better mood he'd jump on it straight away, but this whole death wish thing really does get under his skin and he doesn't know why, which just pisses him off more. ]

Not always easy to make smart choices when you're in the thick of it.

[bloodandbrass]

yeah, but you should still have some kind of self preservation going on. especially in trials.

[hardlydead]

I do.

[bloodandbrass]

right. sure.

locker jockey's got a better instinct to survive than you.

[ dwight. he means dwight. ]

[hardlydead]

Piss off. Don't call him that.

[ yes that's the important part ]