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[bloodandbrass]

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[bloodandbrass]

[ that's what he thought. evan almost smiles to himself, except nothing about this has been funny.

he's not talking about his father. never has. never will. the past is dead. actually dead, in this case. so there's no room or reason to talk about it. ever. ]

glad to hear it.

[hardlydead]

Let's get back to me fucking with your tools.
You busy?

[ he's so funny and not at all in dire need of a distraction after shaking up the daddy issues box a bit. ]

[bloodandbrass]

[ that one catches him off guard in a is he serious? way. unfortunately for david, there's not much more of a mood killer for evan than any reference to that very same rattled box of daddy issues. ]

yes. got enough shit to do right now.

[hardlydead]

How is that different to any other day?

[bloodandbrass]

any other day you weren't trying to get under my skin by asking about my family.

[hardlydead]

I was trying to have a conversation, not get under your skin.
Pardon me for forgetting for 10 minutes that you don't do that.

[bloodandbrass]

yeah, well, you fucked it up.

[hardlydead]

Me?
You're the one who started going on about how I should've killed my dad and also anyone else who even looks at me weird.

[bloodandbrass]

it's good advice. doesn't surprise me you wouldn't take it.

[hardlydead]

Because it's insane.

[bloodandbrass]

lotta shit you do is insane.

[ he's not disagreeing, though. ]

[hardlydead]

I feel like "trying to keep people alive" and "murdering anyone who slights you" are two very different kinds of crazy.

[bloodandbrass]

doesn't make it not insane. especially the way you do it.

[hardlydead]

What about the way I do it?

[bloodandbrass]

death wish.

[hardlydead]

Fuck off.

[ not again!! ]

[bloodandbrass]

truth hurts. better get used to it.

[hardlydead]

Just because you keep saying it doesn't make it true.

[bloodandbrass]

i'm saying it because i've seen it.

[hardlydead]

You've seen me die. Which isn't a surprise considering killing us is literally your job.
That doesn't make it a death wish.

[bloodandbrass]

it ain't the dying that's the death wish. it's how you get there. getting in the way when you don't have to. all that shit at the gates. things like that.

[hardlydead]

So I should just let you have someone else instead? Come on.
It isn't a death wish just because I put them before me either.

[bloodandbrass]

that ain't it either.

you don't get it. doubt you ever will. most death wishes don't until the end.

[hardlydead]

You're the one who doesn't get it.
You don't know what it's like being on this side of the fence, so don't talk to me about a death wish just because I'm doing what I can to get people out that gate with what I know how to do.

I take hits better than most, so I get in the way. That's all there is to it.

[bloodandbrass]

you do it dumber than you should. and you aren't that dumb.

[ this is hard to admit, to be fair. ]

you're not the only one.